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It's Been A While...
Jan. 3rd, 2024 04:42 pmI really need to remember to post here again, any time I have any long-form thoughts that I feel the need to share.
Life is, in summary: shit.
I've been unemployed for the last almost 9 months, after Redgum had to downsize due to cashflow issues, and I was the most logical person to let go. Many years of being underpaid at Redgum had resulted in serious financial strain, and then I was made redundant, which added a whole lot more stress and strain.
I am suffering from both depression and anxiety, but can't really do anything about them because treatment requires money, so they are simply things I need to cope with until I'm employed again.
The one "interesting" thing to come out of all of this (I won't say "good") was that all the stress has caused my various coping mechanisms to slip, which means I can see quite clearly all the traits that show that I am Autistic or have ADHD, or most likely both. This will make things easier in the future, as I know what I am fighting against now.
I recently had to move, and because of being unemployed there was no way I could afford to stay in my beloved Brunswick, so I have moved further out into Reservoir. No longer in an apartment, I'm now in a 2 bedroom, 2 story townhouse. Upstairs is the living area and the kitchen, while downstairs has the two bedrooms, laundry, bathroom, and the garage. There's a small "backyard" accessible through the garage, and that's basically it.
Major issues I have with it at the moment is that the fridge hasn't made it upstairs yet, due to needing to remove the doors to get it up the stairs, and the shower has absolutely shit water pressure. Plans are in place to get help moving the fridge upstairs, and to replace the shower-head with one that isn't as shit, but both of those require money to organise, so I've been hesitant.
On the pet front, both Spitz and Xavier passed away. They were both old men, 17 or 18 years old at the time of passing, and both lived a wonderfully pampered life. I now have Leo in my life, who is a brainless fluff-monster, and I love him dearly.
Leo is a "second-hand" cat, used to belong to a friend's father, Colin. However Colin started suffering from dementia, which means he was no longer able to look after himself, let alone a cat. This was just after Spitz had passed, so Ihad space for another cat, so Leo came to me. Leo took a little bit of time to settle, but once he did he became the most loving cat around. He is a brainless idiot though, and I love him dearly. :)
I've had COVID once that I know about, which was the most blah couple of days imaginable. Otherwise I've weathered COVID reasonably well.
My love life has been non-existent, but my social life has actually been ok.
And on top of everything else, Mum is currently in hospital with a fractured T10 vertebrae. She's in incredible amounts of pain, and can't keep any food or drink down, so I believe the plan is to put her in an IV while they work out what to do from here.
Due to the move and other stresses I couldn't head up to Queensland for Christmas, but Glenn still did, so he's currently there helping Dad, which is a good thing.
The most important thing on the to-do list is to get a job. I was being badly underpaid at Redgum, and if I can get a job that pays suitably for my skill set, I can expect a pay rise of 50% or more. I just need to get the job.
I know I've got the skills, I have been top two at least three of the jobs I've applied for, I just need to get to top 1. :)
Life is, in summary: shit.
I've been unemployed for the last almost 9 months, after Redgum had to downsize due to cashflow issues, and I was the most logical person to let go. Many years of being underpaid at Redgum had resulted in serious financial strain, and then I was made redundant, which added a whole lot more stress and strain.
I am suffering from both depression and anxiety, but can't really do anything about them because treatment requires money, so they are simply things I need to cope with until I'm employed again.
The one "interesting" thing to come out of all of this (I won't say "good") was that all the stress has caused my various coping mechanisms to slip, which means I can see quite clearly all the traits that show that I am Autistic or have ADHD, or most likely both. This will make things easier in the future, as I know what I am fighting against now.
I recently had to move, and because of being unemployed there was no way I could afford to stay in my beloved Brunswick, so I have moved further out into Reservoir. No longer in an apartment, I'm now in a 2 bedroom, 2 story townhouse. Upstairs is the living area and the kitchen, while downstairs has the two bedrooms, laundry, bathroom, and the garage. There's a small "backyard" accessible through the garage, and that's basically it.
Major issues I have with it at the moment is that the fridge hasn't made it upstairs yet, due to needing to remove the doors to get it up the stairs, and the shower has absolutely shit water pressure. Plans are in place to get help moving the fridge upstairs, and to replace the shower-head with one that isn't as shit, but both of those require money to organise, so I've been hesitant.
On the pet front, both Spitz and Xavier passed away. They were both old men, 17 or 18 years old at the time of passing, and both lived a wonderfully pampered life. I now have Leo in my life, who is a brainless fluff-monster, and I love him dearly.
Leo is a "second-hand" cat, used to belong to a friend's father, Colin. However Colin started suffering from dementia, which means he was no longer able to look after himself, let alone a cat. This was just after Spitz had passed, so Ihad space for another cat, so Leo came to me. Leo took a little bit of time to settle, but once he did he became the most loving cat around. He is a brainless idiot though, and I love him dearly. :)
I've had COVID once that I know about, which was the most blah couple of days imaginable. Otherwise I've weathered COVID reasonably well.
My love life has been non-existent, but my social life has actually been ok.
And on top of everything else, Mum is currently in hospital with a fractured T10 vertebrae. She's in incredible amounts of pain, and can't keep any food or drink down, so I believe the plan is to put her in an IV while they work out what to do from here.
Due to the move and other stresses I couldn't head up to Queensland for Christmas, but Glenn still did, so he's currently there helping Dad, which is a good thing.
The most important thing on the to-do list is to get a job. I was being badly underpaid at Redgum, and if I can get a job that pays suitably for my skill set, I can expect a pay rise of 50% or more. I just need to get the job.
I know I've got the skills, I have been top two at least three of the jobs I've applied for, I just need to get to top 1. :)
