Poem: "Even If You Stumble a Little"

Feb. 26th, 2017 05:34 pm
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This poem is spillover from the February 7, 2017 Poetry Fishbowl. It was inspired by a prompt from Anonymous on Dreamwdith. It also fills the "sudden threat" square in my 8-1-17 card for the Survival Bingo fest, and the "chocolates" square in my 2-1-17 Romantic card for the Valentines Bingo fest. This poem has been sponsored by [personal profile] janetmiles. It belongs to the Cassandra thread of the Polychrome Heroics series.

WARNING: This poem contains intense material. Highlight to read the warnings, some of which are spoilers. It features parents stalking a survivor of child abuse, trespassing, emotional shock, confusion, attempted tampering with someone else's property, emotional manipulation, gaslighting, calling for help and getting it, justifiable threats of force including superpowers, intense negative emotions and mixed feelings, reconsideration of legal action, can't adult right now, reference to intrusive fear, and other angst. This may cause stress for survivors of abusive parents and/or stalking. However, Cassandra has awesome friends who are not putting up with any shit from her parents, and who provide excellent backup to solve the problems. If these are sensitive issues for you, please consider your tastes and headspace before reading onward.

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So far the half-price sale in Polychrome Heroics is doing well. I just got a donation for "Even If You Stumble a Little," which I'll have to post after lunch.

[personal profile] ng_moonmoth is running a pool if you want to get in on that.

[livejournal.com profile] my_partner_doug just came up with a new idea of letting the general fund earn the quarter-price rate if it reaches $100 during the sale. Currently the general fund contains $28.50. Here is a ticker to track the general fund for this sale:




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  1. food )
  2. Also food. )
  3. Still food! )
  4. I am still chewing over last week's Elementary, and redemption arcs and chosen family and boundaries and necessities and narrative imperative in tension with multiple kinds of emotional satisfaction, and the things I find myself wanting -- superficially -- from the story, given points-of-view, and the odd and bittersweet relief at instead getting what I need. The murder plots make no sense, but then they mostly didn't ever; I am still very much here for the characters.
  5. My new CEA card arrived in the post yesterday, which means I will stop feeling faintly guilty about "wasting money" every time I go to the cinema. This is a Good Thing, given how much I'm looking forward to Hidden Figures.
  6. I'm having a really tough time writing an abstract this week, for a variety of reasons, but in the face of that I got a draft in more than 18 hours before the deadline that I was actually reasonably happy with, via the iterative-improvement approach to writing. It needs substantially rewriting, but I've demonstrated that my techniques work, and I've got reasonable confidence that the substatial rewriting wasn't in fact me wildly misinterpreting what was going on.
  7. I said no to someone, and it was fine. (And indeed several other someones, which was less fine but which left me feeling better than I would've if I'd stayed silent.) I told someone I'd screwed something up, face-to-face and more-or-less straight away rather than stewing for six hours over sending an e-mail, and it was fine. Both were really difficult, and I did them.
  8. I appear, via UCH, to have found a sustainable set of strength-building exercises to do that are resulting in measurable improvements. I'm dealing with a lot of complicated Feelings about this pretty well.
  9. Some stripy tulips were much reduced in the supermarket last week; they've been sat in a glass jar on the dining table slowly drying out and turning interesting shapes ever since, and they make me feel soothed and safe and at home.
  10. I am forever gently amused by the thing where, when A is around, we sleep under a single lightweight duvet and are frequently too warm. When he's away, I end up nesting in a pile of that duvet, my three-season much-larger covered-in-dinosaurs duvet, a weighted blanket, and a big soft non-allergenic stripy blue blanket -- and I end up comfortably warm, and with a lot of weight on me, and it's very nice to have occasionally.
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[personal profile] stardreamer is posting the story "Birthday Surprise," of which the first three (of planned four) chapters are up.  Stan takes Lawrence out for a very special  day.  And night.  :D  As far as I know, this is canon, although it's a bit later in the timeline than what I've been writing so far.

Half-Price Sale in Polychrome Heroics

Feb. 25th, 2017 08:53 pm
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[personal profile] ng_moonmoth plans to sponsor some poetry in the half-price sale. Here's the setup:

Thanks for the clarification. I was actually interested in "The Ocean From Above", and will send $84+31.25 to cover that. Also thinking about "Insha'Allah" for another $31.25. If anyone wants to jump in and help with those, or any portion of "Everything That You Are Chasing", please comment back or PM me, so I can share the PayPal account that should get your contribution. I'll send the sponsorship money Sunday evening.

So get in touch if that appeals to you. The original post is here if you want to comment under it with a reply.

The Wizard War in Comics

Feb. 25th, 2017 01:10 am
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I was amused by this article about a wizard war between two guys who make comics.  This explains so much of the mayhem in the multiverse.  ;) 

Spell Against Drumpf

Feb. 24th, 2017 11:24 pm
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For those of you wishing that #45 would go away ...

"Anyone do magic out there? I guess there's a spell being cast to bind Trump worldwide at midnight (EST) tonight. So if you have an orange candle, a tarot deck, and an "unflattering photo of Trump (small)" you can join in. :-D There are instructions in this news article as well as unflattering photo of Trump (small)."

Friday Yardening

Feb. 24th, 2017 11:11 pm
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Today I refilled the birdfeeders. Then I mulched around the contorta willow and started putting mulch around the big maple near the house.

I have miniature Dutch iris blooming now, along with snowdrops and a few more forsythia blossoms. :D

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Poem: "Black Mollies"

Feb. 24th, 2017 02:03 pm
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This poem is spillover from the December 6, 2017 Poetry Fishbowl. It was inspired by a prompt from [personal profile] alatefeline. It also fills the "Black Mollies" square in my 12-1-16 card for the iPod Shuffle Music Fest Bingo. This poem has been sponsored by Anthony & Shirley Barrette. It belongs to the Shiv thread of the Polychrome Heroics series.

WARNING: This poem contains intense material that some readers may find unsettling. Highlight to read the warnings, some of which are spoilers. Shiv gets saddled with babysitting a toddler, which he is not prepared for and finds triggering. He actually can function while flashbacking, but it is not fun. The poem includes unwilling childcare duty, painfully inept attempts at babysitting, poor self-image, extreme anxiety causing significant physical symptoms, panic attacks, difficulty thinking, general freaking out, desperate begging for help from Dr. G, a lot of foul language only some of which is self-censored partway through, Shiv has no idea how to take care of a toddler, but he gets most of it surprisingly okay and there is no permanent damage, Shiv has utterly no grasp of how real sharing is supposed to work, boundary issues so many boundary issues, also some safety issues, lots of hints about Shiv's utterly horrible past, resistance to talking about anything remotely connected with sex, Shiv is terrified that he'll wind up abusing kids if he is around any, anxiety over making mistakes, abandonment issues, extreme potty panic due to Shiv's past sexual and other abuse, self-bullying, jealousy, age-switching, craft challenges, my supervillain has a pretty princess bathroom, half-sane half-scrambled gender issues, reference to outside teasing, inability to sit still, running on the stairs, Shiv's taste in cartoons is not entirely child-safe, children's songs are incredibly violent if you really listen to the lyrics, Buttons isn't sure whether to be grateful for the babysitting or pissed at Shiv's methods so she does both, which drives Shiv up a wall, clinginess, avoidance, clueless Shiv is clueless, aftermath anxiety, and other stress. This poem is likely to be uncomfortable for abuse survivors and possibly also parents. There is actually a lot of fluff, though, and aside from being a completely nerve-wracking experience for Shiv, it goes well enough that Jaxon likes him. If these are sensitive issues for you, please consider your tastes and headspace before deciding whether this is something you want to read. It's a point in Shiv's process of coping with his abusive past, so it's plot-relevant, but shouldn't leave an unavoidably huge hole in the main storyline if you skip it.

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The Harp Twins are crowdfunding new harps. (Remember, they need two of everything. Yikes.) At the concert we saw, they had acoustic pedal harps, and electic lever harps. Now they're saving for electroacoustic pedal harps, which will have special effects pedals along with the usual ones for changing the pitch. Pay close attention to the status: $13,615 of $6,000 goal.  $6000 was the amount they were short of the downpayment for having the harps made, after saving money on their own.  The overage all goes toward the monthly payments, which are also large.  So the more, the merrier.  If you've got a few bucks to spare, chip in and let there be more harping!

I have to say, my farmemory makes this all the more squeeworthy.  Concert harps were exciting enough -- the classic harps could only be repitched with a tuning key.  Special effects pedals?  My historic and futuristic aspects are both geeking out at the same time, and that almost never happens.  :D

Together. As we do with all things.

Feb. 24th, 2017 06:05 am
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There are a few resonant phrases in this relationship. Some are endearments and other such private things.

There are two that occupy adjacent spaces.

"As long as we both want it."
That's our time commitment. If both of us no longer want the relationship, it's time to work on dismantling it with the same consideration and love we put into constructing it. If so many as one of us no longer wants it, it's time to end it.

And as long as we both do want it, that means putting in the work. Being present. Taking care. Tackling the problems that pop up.

And there will be problems. But we don't have to face them alone anymore.

"Together. As we do with all things."

Even when we still have to do a specific part alone, the principle stays with us. The hard things are a little less hard with someone holding your hand.

Poem: "Just Over the Horizon"

Feb. 23rd, 2017 08:20 pm
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This poem is spillover from the November 8, 2017 Poetry Fishbowl. It was inspired by a prompt from [personal profile] sweet_sparrow. It also fills the "recreation" square in my 10-4-16 card for the Games and Sports Bingo fest. This poem has been sponsored by Anthony & Shirley Barrette. It belongs to the Cassandra thread of the Polychrome Heroics series.

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Thursday Yardening

Feb. 23rd, 2017 04:54 pm
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Today I planted two goji berry bushes in the savanna hedgerow along the road.  Then I put the water jug greenhouses over them, and mulched around them.

While working in the mulch pile, I unearthed a toad, and carefully re-covered him.  <3 my detritus food chain!  Worms everywhere while digging, too.

Honeysuckles, crabapples, and privets are beginning to leaf out.  Some daffodils have buds now.  The first of the forsythias by the garage are blooming a few sprigs.  Snowbells are blooming in the white garden.  :D
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The Bottle Boys make beautiful music using found instruments:

  • Melodies from blowing across beer bottles (in 10-packs, carefully tuned) and
  • Percussion from shaking pop bottles full of rocks and beating a large, empty carboy.

You can see the many instrumental pop songs they’ve covered at

www.thebottleboys.com

Combine that with a quartet of three violin & a cello and you’ve got this video:

Stings Strings & Bottles )

[description: All players are white, blond, male Danes. Additional melodies come from

  • a glass harmonica of wine glasses, their rims excited by chopsticks, finger tips, and violin bows
  • an alto pan pipe of test-tubes
  • a tenor pan pipe of wine bottles
  • a bass pan pipe of growlers
  • inserting fingers in bottle neck and swiftly popping them

Percussion includes

  • hand slapping chest
  • hands & chopsticks on the cello
  • a wee plastic egg full of rice]

Poem: "Best Measured in Friends"

Feb. 23rd, 2017 06:20 am
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This poem is spillover from the February 7, 2017 Poetry Fishbowl. It was inspired by a prompt from Anonymous on Dreamwidth. It also fills the "talk with a friend" square in my 2-1-17 Platonic card for the Valentines Bingo fest. This poem has been sponsored by Anthony & Shirley Barrette. It belongs to the Officer Pink thread of the Polychrome Heroics series. Note that these events take place shortly after Turq and Ansel meet, concerning one of Turq's cohort.

Warning: This poem contains some intense stuff. Highlight to read the warnings, some of which are spoilers. It features homelessness, disconnection, feelings of loss and despair, depression due to mad science torture, shame, references to computer hacking, poverty, sleep disturbances, difficulty asking for help, and other challenges. Nebuly is a mess, because everyone who survived Carl Bernhardt's attention is a mess, but he's doing a little better now. This poem captures a turning point when friends become family of choice. If these are sensitive issues for you, please consider your tastes and headspace before reading onward.

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Wednesday Ramblings

Feb. 22nd, 2017 11:50 pm
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Today we met up with my folks in Champaign-Urbana.  So they have their batch of poetry from the half-price sale.  \o/  We had lunch together too.

The main goal was making a major stockup run at Sam's Club.  We got a ton of food, some garden soil for leveling low spots, and a very cool garden cart.  We'll be making sloppy joe mix and keema, having picked up ingredients for those recipes.

We also stopped at Harvest Market.  They had more jackfruit, yay!  \o/  These were whole, about the size of a watermelon, but could be cut, so I got three big slices.  My plan is to make bread pudding and ice cream.  One of the employees also tipped us to the availability of barbecue jackfruit, which is made from the green fruit, so we got some of that to try also.  :D  They also had some shortbread cooking which turned out to be amazingly tasty and tender.  We did not, strictly speaking, need to buy a carton of cookies and half a gallon of farm-fresh chocolate milk, but after several hours of hiking around and buying healthy food, we decided that we deserved a treat.

Poem: "A Slow Ripening Fruit"

Feb. 22nd, 2017 07:59 pm
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This poem came out of the December 6, 2016 Poetry Fishbowl. It was inspired by a prompt from [personal profile] kyleri. It also fills the "Must Be Doin' Somethin' Right" square in my 12-1-16 card for the IPod Shuffle Music fest. This poem has been sponsored by [livejournal.com profile] starcat_jewel. It belongs to the Shiv thread of the Polychrome Heroics series.

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Two Great Vids from the Festivids

Feb. 22nd, 2017 03:51 pm
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Vidding defined )

Although the annual Festivids discussion and commenting happen on Dreamwidth (mirrored on Livejournal, Tumblr, IRC and so forth), the vids themselves are posted in many places. In my brief experience, the most lasting is Festivids' own site.

For now, all the 2016 Festivids are here
http://fv-poster.dreamwidth.org/336383.html

and for the future, visit
http://www.festivids.net/festivids/festivids-2016

The two highlights for me: A Better Son/Daughter and Get Better )

Judaism and Special Needs

Feb. 22nd, 2017 12:18 pm
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[personal profile] gingicat tipped me to this online resource for Jewish teaching and special needs.  In addition to helping Jewish families with special needs, this is also useful for anyone who has Jewish friends.

Poem: "The Outcome of Vulnerability"

Feb. 22nd, 2017 03:25 am
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This poem is from the July 19, 2016 Poetry Fishbowl. It was inspired by prompts from [personal profile] eseme, [personal profile] redsixwing, and [personal profile] heartsinger. It also fills the "cuddling" square in my 7-16-16 card for the [community profile] hc_bingo fest. This poem has been sponsored by [livejournal.com profile] starcat_jewel. It belongs to the Antimatter and Stalwart Stan thread of the Polychrome Heroics series.

Warning: This poem contains some intense topics. Highlight to read the warnings, some of which are spoilers. It features homework about intimate relationships, extreme embarrassment, inconvenient-but-not-inappropriate erections, Lawrence suggesting that Stan is demisexual, Stan flibbering some more, Lawrence calling Mr. Marshall to rearrange the assignment a bit, Lawrence talking with Stuart about privacy issues, Stuart is a mensch but Stan is really about to die of embarrassment now, intimate discussions, Stan is right this is pr0n for demis, reference to animal death, reference to death in the family, painful discussion of finances, Stan's sense of self-worth has a big chink there, offstage masturbation, Lawrence is bemused by Stuart again, but Stuart is such a mensch, and other challenging stuff. But it is mostly a great big ball of gay fluff. If these are sensitive issues for you, please consider your tastes and headspace before reading onward.

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Tuesday Yardening

Feb. 21st, 2017 11:43 pm
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Today I put mulch around 7 more shrub seedlings.  That finishes the row along the road in the savanna, other than the Canadian hemlocks that died upon planting.  One thing I'd like to try this spring is planting potted ones if I can find some at a nursery. 

Poem: "A Bicycle Built for Three"

Feb. 21st, 2017 02:31 pm
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This poem came out of the February 2017 Creative Jam. It was inspired and sponsored by [personal profile] artsyhonker. It also fills the "Love Without Limits" square in my 2-1-17 Romantic card for the Valentines Bingo fest. This poem belongs to the Cassandra thread of the Polychrome Heroics series.

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Desert Rose

I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in vain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand

I dream of fire
Those dreams that tie two hearts that will never die
And near the flames
The shadows play in the shape of the man’s desire

This desert rose
Whose shadow bears the secret promise
This desert flower
No sweet perfume that would torture you more than this

And now she turns
This way she moves in the logic of all my dreams
This fire burns
I realize that nothing’s as it seems

I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in vain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand

I dream of rain
I lift my gaze to empty skies above
I close my eyes
The rare perfume is the sweet intoxication of love

I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in vain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand

Sweet desert rose
Whose shadow bears the secret promise
This desert flower
No sweet perfume that would torture you more than this

Sweet desert rose
This memory of hidden hearts and souls
This desert flower
This rare perfume is the sweet intoxication of love

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